Oh ! that beautifully dirty lake

The still lake next to my house
with stagnant and dirty water
very few fishes jumping in and out
filled with lichen and algae
snakes moving around
looks beautifully dirty
looks so beautiful to me


The same lake was like a lake
some twenty years ago
when I was a child, a small kid
sitting on the stones/rocks near it
on the background of setting sun
what I did not do with her
near that beautifully dirty lake

It was not allowed to go near that lake
some twenty years ago
with the fear that I may fall inside
or a monster may grab and take me inside
the prohibition was there,
so there was zeal
to hide from my mom’s eyes
and go and hide behind that rocks on the
shore of that beautiful lake

I hid myself behind the rock, from the eyes of my mom
I hid my face under her arms, on her chest
Kid ! I was and so she was!
but, we felt matured and adult
and what we did not do!
near the beach of that beautiful lake
so, I find today
the lake is beautifully dirty

I can just imagine her touch
her soft kisses, her soft love
while I see this lake alone
dying with time
wish I get that touch again
on the shore of this beautifully dirty lake
behind those colossal rocks
which there were there, not today !
on the backdrop of setting sun

I love her and that beautifully dirty lake!!!!

Random Thoughts

I am walking down a straight road

alone

A straight road with minor curves

little twists and some more turns but

a staright road

No destiny of my own

I owe my destiny to the road wherever it takes me

I do not like to go to unknown places

Therefore, walking a straight lane/road with 

minor curves, minor turns

There is no fixed place to be reached

No time scheduled to reach anywhere

I am not racing, nor competing with anyone

I can maintain my own pace

racing with myself

alone in a straight road with minor curves

little turns here and there

I can see the end of the road after long walks

but no destiny on sight

I can see still and stagnant road

never gets carried away with my constant pace

sleeps silently beneath my foot

The road has been used for years

No complain of its own against anyone

may be straight road weeps sliently

being raped for years by humna foot

but no complain with me

just allows me to walk on these straight roads

straight roads with minor turns

I keep on walking with no end in sight

Life is singing happy tunes!!!!

I am very happy today, I do not know why. I just feel like that. In fact, I should be sad today, real sad. I do not know why should I feel sad but I feel that sad moments are reserved for the day. again, I do not know why I am happy today or happy now.But, I just feel that I should feel happy now. It's enough that I felt sad. Last Some days, I was in some kind of doubt, I think I was sad. And today was dreadful by any standard.!!!! I should be really sad and crying for today's date as it turned out to be ! But, Now, I am happy as I have to be. There is no other option. My colleague Anandita says life has so much bad things/harsh moments which we need to brush aside and move ahead. That's it! She is absolutely right here. A lot of these kinds of moments I have set aside and brushed off but again, it's a question of heart!, sometimes, U feel so helpless and hopeless, and U again, gather all the courage and We need to move ahead and So, I am doing.

It's something like what Vinnet forwarded that mail to me, 9 out of 10. Only 10 percent things in life are outside our control and rest 90% are on our hands. These things will be as turn out to be depending on the way we act. I forwarded this message to Aida and she said one day to me, life is 90% on your control as you said as per your forwarded mail. Againl, I felt she was right!

Why I should I feel sad for the moments which is 10% of my life when I make my life happy by controlling 90% of things in my life??

Today's incidents are like nightmares to me. But, they are just nightmares. i am not in the mood of spoiling my sleep and coming days by remembering these nightmares. If I remember these nightmares, I may have real nightmare in the night.  I am tired of these things.

I expect to be a great day tomorrow and all days after tomorrow. Let me if I can have great days but I will do real hard to make them better days.

Now, I feel real cool and really motivated...........Hey  World ! Here I come, real happy man!